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Gender Ender

by Kids' Table

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1.
J2 03:15
Finding, finding out who you truly are truly are Think back to when you were young you thought you had it all figured out but Who you thought you were then Is not who you are now and Who you are now is not who you will be ten years from now We're not the same as we used to be but maybe we could find something to reconnect on Maybe three years from now when we lose that one we'll talk because we're afraid We both had the same feelings that he did And we could do what he did And I'm afraid that I'll lose you He'll push you a little too far and then you'll cut it off You'll cut it all off And I'll never get to see you again Finding, finding out who you truly are Maybe we'll never find out Maybe we're no one maybe we're everyone Everyone But I'm not sure we'll ever know And then we're gone And then we're gone And then we're gone And then we're We're gone Why are you gone Where have you gone Where have you gone Where have you gone Cause I just wanna see you again And I'll never get to see you again
2.
Say Goodbye 03:05
I don’t really wanna leave but I can’t see myself staying I wish I knew how to make up my mind I know that you’re lying but I don’t know how to call you out I hope you’re happy with yourself this time So if you’re staying Please stay a while But if you’re leaving please Just say goodbye What’s the point in make-believe if it won’t ever make you happy Maybe you just need some time on your own I know these times are tough, yeah, twenty-something life is rough I wish I knew what to do with my life So if you know Please tell me why But if you don’t please Just say goodbye So if you’re staying Please stay a while But if you’re leaving please Just say goodbye
3.
I was never good at making friends But I can sing about how that never ends And people love me anyway Even though I’m so insecure I can’t fucking stand straight Bury me in the sound Drown me in the notes Play so loud I can’t hear anymore Drown me in your notes Soothing words around my mind Finding things beyond what I can find Picture frames my hands phase through Loving the things that are lost in you And I hang on to every word Feeling so much emotion it is frankly absurd Bury me in the sound Drown me in your notes Play so loud I can’t hear anymore Drown me in your notes The fact that my safe place Is not a real place Is so bittersweet I can take it anywhere I go but I will never be within I fantasize about drowning in it Or unlocking a door that takes me into the melody But these dreams have no anchor in reality So bury me in the sound Drown me in you notes Play so loud I can’t hear anymore Drown me in the notes Drown me in your notes Drown me in your notes
4.
Dirty Nails 02:54
I'm trapped again, in this hole of despair Please find a way, to get me out of here I know, it's not that easy I know, I know, it's not that easy We tried a rope but it just broke off Tried a ladder, didn't reach far enough Is there a way to get me out of here Is there a way We'll find a way, we'll find a way We'll find a way, we'll find a way Don't worry, I'll be just fine You know me, I'll stay in line I'll get things done, from all the way down here And for me, the road is so clear I'll find a way, I'll find a way I'll find a way, I'll find a way I've had a realization Now theres nothing to worry about I've thought a lot about it and I'll have to climb my own wayyyy out I found a way, I found a waaaaaayyy I found a way, I found a way
5.
I had a dream, I had a dream, I had a dream An existential nightmare if you will It lingered with me all day It would not leave my brain Should I say 'cause maybe you'll change your mind Or do I stay silent because Maybe I'm the reason you decide But who'd want to know How they die I had a dream, I had a dream Where the world was ending And as the moon grew closer to the earth I had no doubt that you'd stay with me You held me close to the very end And when I awoke, I couldn't breathe Because now I know how it feels To die And I had a dream, I had a dream Where my parents thought I'd fail I had a dream where I could never find the trail I had a dream where no one could hear me And I had a dream where Everyone laughed at me I had a dream where I finally met you I had a dream, I had a dream Where I did not have to let you go 'Cause who'd want to let You go
6.
Control 04:06
I know your fear I’ve felt it before It emanates static from my core It keeps me in the house all day It rips my livelihood away It tells me I’m not good enough It plays with my mind a bit too rough It chews me up and spits me out It claims my brain for fear and self-doubt If you wanna know me Talk to me first If you wanna love me Know I’m cursed If you wanna hate me Might as well run If you wanna save me It can’t be done For years I thought this monster Had a hold of me That I could never be what I wanna be I bottled myself up And didn’t tell a soul Until I finally realized I am in control! If you wanna know me Talk to me first If you wanna love me Know I’m cursed If you wanna hate me Might as well run If you wanna save me It can’t be done No one person can ever really fix you You have to look inside and find the real you I didn’t realize till I was grown But you just gotta do some things on your own If you wanna know me Talk to me first If you wanna love me Know I’m cursed If you wanna hate me Might as well run If you wanna save me It can’t be done If you wanna know me Talk to me first If you wanna love me Know I’m cursed If you wanna hate me Might as well run If you wanna save me I’m the only one If you wanna save me I’m the only one
7.
Gender Ender 04:20
What happens to the kids who don’t turn out how you want them to be Do we shove them into closets or do we keep them Out of our streets What happens when they grow up into something we have Not seen before What happens when I finally figure out Who I am inside? And I’m so sick of binaries Trying to keep me in my place Maybe someday everything will change I’ll be free to be me Regardless of the contents of my pants You’ll see me For what I like and who I am And if you think I’m a boy or girl Then you should just remember I’m the gender ender Yeah I’m the gender ender I put on a dress Cause it made me look good on the outside So I left the house And it made me feel bad on the inside Cause what I see in the mirror Is so different from what they see And what they see Is so different from what they think they’re supposed to And we’re all sick of binaries Meant to keep us in our place But I know that we can make the change We’ll be free as we can be Regardless of the contents of our pants Everyone will see But for now you’re doing the best that you can And if someone misgenders you And you need a defender Call me Cause I’m the gender ender

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The debut album of Kids' Table!! We are three queer siblings who believe in the power of music as a safe space. We made this album with the hopes that it will inspire other queer kids to express themselves and follow their dreams. We are Kids' Table and we love you <3

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released June 2, 2017

All songs written by Kids' Table
Kids' Table is:
Saturn - Guitar, vocals
Hannah - Drums
Steph - Bass, vocals, keys, glockenspiel

Recorded and engineered by Pa (DC-PDX)

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Three queer sibs on a mission to end your local gender

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